Scalpel's Edge

A surgeon's notes

Starting Over

I have been quiet. Silent. Stum.

I was loathe to write one of those posts “my life is too busy right now, I’ll get back to you later”. So I didn’t. And many months later, I continued to not write that post.

I chose to be silent. Firstly, I was working on my PhD and realized (slooowly) that my thesis was more important than my blog community. In the midst of that focus shift, I had my third child, which made quiet time more scarce. My son is seven months old now, and my thesis is submitted. I have time to spend on my own pursuits.

The final reason I paused blogging was I was frustrated. I choose to write a medical blog, but my last clinical appointment was six years ago. I am passionate about medicine, and I keep thinking about it, but I felt like a clean-handed activist – willing to be cranky, but only from a distance.

However, things are about to change. After a very long break from my surgical training for my PhD and maternity leave, I am returning to the frontline. This was trickier to arrange than I expected. Due to the combination of medical research and maternity leave, I have had to agree to some concessions. I will have to return to being a first year (I had already completed one year of four), and I have promised to take no further unscheduled leave.

So this blog may become a bit more personal, as I deal with the heart lift, heart wrenching duality of returning to surgery, and leaving my kids. Or maybe it will just deteriorate into a train wreck as I lose perspective studying for my fellowship exam.

Life changes. Maybe my blogging habits can, too.

3 responses to “Starting Over”

  1. rlbates says:

    Welcome back! Looking forward to more

  2. anivyl says:

    life often turns out differently from what we plan and what we hope it would be. my blog started out as something and then went another way entirely. now, it’s a mishmash of whatever i feel like for the moment – which is, really, quite me since I often have no sense of direction.

    That said, now that I do have a sense of direction, I am trying so hard to not let my blog show it. weird huh.

    good luck to you, at least i know i can find you on twitterspace 🙂

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